I woke up one night and heard noises coming from my parent's room. I took a peek inside their room and saw my mom naked on the bed with my dad. I quickly went back to my bedroom. I started taking off my pants and underwear. In the past, I had rubbed my penis by humping my pillow, but I didn't really know what masturbation was. Well, by this time I had learned about the body and the male genitals from school, so I just started putting my hand on my penis and pushed up and down, I thought sperm would come out, so I touched the top of my penis and felt for something. I only felt a sticky substance. I couldn't see in the dark, so I went to the bathroom quickly and looked at my penis. There was a little bit of clear fluid coming out of the tip, which I knew was not sperm. I heard several times before that sperm is white.

I went back to my room and did the same thing again, but this time I had a funny feeling like I needed to urinate desperately. I ran to the bathroom again and I sat down on the toilet in case I started to pee. Now that I didn't have to worry about peeing all over my room, I wrapped my hand around my stiff penis and pumped up and down as I held my thumb and index finger against the head of my penis. The feeling got so intense very quickly. Before I knew what hit me, I saw white stuff come out. Then, my legs started to feel weak and shaky. I went back to bed not sure what to think.

A few days later, I went to the bathroom and masturbated again. The white stuff came out again. I remember I felt the urge to do this every coupe of days, but it took a few times before it really started to feel good. I remember it must have been about a year later when I first found my dad's old porn videos. I could tell he had not watched them in a very long time, so I decided to take one at a time and watch them secretly in my room. When I started masturbating in there with the visual aid of the videos, I really perfected the masturbation sensation. I still would really like to know what women feel like when they masturbate. I have had two long term relationships with women, and both have not wanted to talk about their own masturbation very much. I think that is very unfortunate, and I am going to try to ease my current girlfriend into being more open about it.